Trusting

How do you trust someone again when they have hurt you so bad to the point where you thought it would be better off then alive? Im trying to figure it out. Its not working to well thought. You want me to open up and here i am in a lot of pain and would love to tell you how im feeling whats going thru my head and you tune me out. How can i believe you when u say you care? When you wont even talk to me? This is not the kind of love i want. I dont want you to say the words i want you to act like you love me. Thats why i havent said it back to you cause i dont feel you understand what "I love you" really means. I still see pictures of your wife, my replacement, on your wall. If it's over why cant you take them down? Im not allowed to talk or hang out with any of my friends yet you can do what ever. This doesn't feel like love. But dont get me wrong im greatful you took me in when no one else would. I owe you a lot for that. But i dont even see happiness in your eyes anymore. Are you going to cast me out like you did to her and me before? When i said it seems like you dont want me here you said nothing. So that has to be true and this all must be a lie. I'm really alone even though we share a bed