Love Me Tender

Well i didn't want to start my blog this way but life comes and goes all the time. I want to scream at death to bring back people but it just doesn't work like that. My friend Steve passed away last Sunday. I never got to thank him for all the things he has done for me. I don't think he knew then how much he meant to me but i know he knows now. Steve and I shared a love for Elvis. He would tell me stories about how he meet The King himself a couple times and even mailed him free tickets to see him Vegas. The weird thing on the Sunday he passed away i couldn't get the song "Love Me Tender" out of my head. I feel he was trying to say good bye to me. Also my laptop decided to turn off when i first started to write this post and right when i was saying why i titled this the way I did the song "love Me Tender" came on. A bit creepy but not at the same time. Steve and my relationship start when i start working at a coffee shop. He would come in every morning get a small coffee (black) and sit do the crossword while smoking his cigs. And soon we start talking even after i quit that job i would get up early just to go there to see him. I spent hours listening to his life story. (There were some crazy ones too!) But the ones that made be a better person were the ones about his kids. They were never around so i would go on holidays and spacial days to sit with him and keep him company. He would also give me advise about my own Father and I who I hadn't seen in years. Because of Steve's stories I'm getting closer to my Dad. I owe that to Steve. I kind of saw Steve as a Dad because he would give me those "parent" talks. I miss him so much. But i know hes watching over me. I wish i could see him one more time to say good bye. I love you Steve and every time I listen to Elvis I will think of you and when we sat listening to his songs while smoking and drinking coffee.

My friend also died a couple months ago and his Uncle wrote this poem after he found out Casey died and i cant get it out of my head so I'm going to put it here

Relax it is me don't be tense, Yeah it's really me,

I'm with you now forever by your side. I'm with you every

moment, every step and every stride

Yeah, I made a decision that was written in stone, a decision

to protect you and to promise you will never be alone. I

know your heart is heavy and this seems too much to bear,

but don't give up, don't you even dare. i know you're

only reading words, not hearing my voice, but trust

that I'm with you now as it was my choice

A man told me that I had a big decision to make. I was

still pinching myself, rubbing my eyes, I couldn't tell if

what was happening was either real or fake. In that

moment a gift was given to me, a gift to be your

protection day in and day out, to watch your back

and show you confidence when in doubt

For every breath you take, every move, every

moment you're awake, in your dreams, in

these words, a promise I vow to never break

I don't hurt anymore. I only understand

and want to show you how, I want you

to trust and believe that I'm with you

now